I’m a quart low in energy. It’s been so draining. So much bad stuff going on both man-made and natural disasters. It takes a toll. The sadness is overwhelming. (And I’m not a victim! How bad is it for them?)
Remembering back to the first mass shootings – Columbine and Sandy Hook – my heart hurt a lot. It took weeks to get back to normal, or the new normal. So much confusion.
Then the frequency kicked up. Now it’s monthly or bi-weekly or something. I struggle because I am empathetic yet I can’t live in a pit of eternal sadness. Have I become hardened? I worry about that. It’s not good.
There have always been shootings but most were not random. There is some root cause whether it’s valid to the rest of us or not. Maybe it is domestic-related or gang-related but there was a reason and a target. We can understand that. It makes us feel better somehow. Safer.
A killer shooting as many people as they can without knowing anyone is not something I can comprehend. There is no reason. We are not safe. It can happen anywhere.
Recently there was a killing over a parking space. Really? A parking space? Here take mine. I can walk.
We say it is mental illness. Maybe, but there was always mental illness and it didn’t end in mass random shootings. It may end in suicide or at worst a related murder/suicide.
What is different? The openly accepted rudeness and hatred? Social media (we like to blame that a lot)? More available weapons? The chaos? The blame game? Hollow words with no meaning? That’s for someone smarter than me to decide.
Back when I was a kid, there were tragic accidents. Things happened that no one intended. People accepted it with reluctance or sadness, but they accepted it. Now people go for blood. I wouldn’t be surprised to see vigilante groups roam again.
How did we get here but better still how do we get out of here?
Author’s note: I apologize for such a dark post. I admire comedians as they seem to be able to continue their humor when their hearts are breaking. I need some lessons on that. My heart goes out to all victims of fires, shootings and all negativity that is going on.