I admire laid back people. Those people who don’t seem to have a care in the world. They always expect the best to happen and never do the “what if’s.” If something goes awry, they muddle through. They survive. The world does not come to an end.
Is that just a façade? Are they a closet worrier? Do they bottle it up inside and shred their guts or live free of care and worry?
How can you be like that? Is it something you develop or a genetic marker you are born with? Is it nature or nurture?
I’m not one of those people. Perhaps I always had responsibilities. There are always contingency plans in my back pocket – an alternative when the worst scenario happens. Maybe I’m nuts. Let’s call it neurotic. That’s so much more in.
When I was a child I would get excited about doing something fun — so excited that I would get sick. My mother wouldn’t tell me about it until we were on our way out the door hoping I wouldn’t barf in the car. Sometimes that worked.
During my business years all the planning paid off big time. I did well by having an ace in my back pocket when something went wrong. The ability to change horses in the middle of the stream can be a real business asset. Life was good.
Then I retired.
This characteristic doesn’t play out as well at home, at least not unless there is a project going on.
The beloved husband is one of those laid back folks. I can drive him crazy with my planning. Retirement isn’t about details. It’s about going with the flow.
Flow doesn’t do it for me. I like things well planned with the option to change. It’s like free-falling. Some people like it and some people don’t. Without details I get anxiety.
When I get anxiety it’s not pretty. It manifests itself as a physical ailment – creepy crawly flesh under the skin and the sensation of a head ready to bust.
My remedy is peace and calm. Routine helps. Oh yes and a nice Starbucks on a lazy afternoon.
Yes I do see the irony. If I started with the remedy perhaps the anxiety wouldn’t flare. That’s easier said than done!
Are you a neurotic planner or a let it happen person?